delalee

.. I may not talk about your sweetness or how you shined like a star as a human being,
but no matter what happens you'll always be the one for me, trust me nobody can change that.
I know that I havent write about you in month's,
it's quite silent since you've been gone and I miss hearing your laughfs.
Deep inside of me heart do I know something very clear, I will miss you so damn hard
and even if I sacrifce a part of me to god for reaching you to me, even that wouldn't help..
We'll be just not seeing eachother in a while, not in a eternity just in a beautiful day, but when?
.. when I'll be old enough to dig my body and seach for your soul,   

I at least will be know that a part of me will be happy in the other shining side of the world.
In this life I've experience a lot, though your gone and not standing by my side,
I have so much on my cheast to let out but no matter what I say, time wont give you back to me..
I know that tears wont desolve my issue, it would just make it all worse than it already is,
and it will just make you feel more uncomfterable up there in above..
But it aint easy trust me, you would say the same thing if you wore in my situation.

Walking alone in the streets and hoping by seeing your face,
feel your touch or hear your voice.. because I know that it would but a smile on my face.
But that's just ridiculous, becacuse reality is a lie and dreams are for real..
Everything has their reasons, and that's the same thing with your death.

I can't explain the pain you cost me, it's some of my worst day I've seen,
don't wanna see it again, hear or even talk about it..
Everytime I see your picture I thinking  of our times we spent together,
it's hurt to think about it.. or should I say that it's killing me to say your dead?
Your not dead, no way.. it's not true because you live in my heart,
we'll die together when my soul is weak enough to stay infront of the gate in heaven..
I would rather die then see you suffer or cry, I can't stand out of see you unhappy my baby..

For everyday that I think of you, I just say my angel..
The smile you had and the personality..  just wore one of my favorites!
I always have a door open for you just in case if you someday come back,
just follow my heart wich is full of love, give me your hand when I'm reaching for you..
Don't be afraid my dear, I wont hurt you.. Just wanna have you close to me,
Hugg you and love you like our old times.. Come near me, let me touch you,
just in case so that I know that I'm not dreaming, so that I can finally have you by my side.

Oh god, if only that wish could be real.. wouldn't I be the happiest girl in earth?
Tell me some.. Just the relief, the feeling..
a emotion that I adore.. I would fly of happyness.

Iif you wont show up in this live, come and visit me sometimes back and then in my dream..
at least then I'll know that you still think of me, missing me.. wantin' me close.