08/04/17. Never again..
It's been a while since we've spoked & I really dont see a reason to even talk to you.
To see you will maybe take my breath away for some seconds..
Just to see through your eyes and see that smile you have did kill me once in a time,
but to let go doesn't happen easily but time has come though I'm not saying goodbye.
I can't tell myself over and over again that you will make me happy,
and I hoped of all my heart that the day would come but you constantly making me unhappy.
I can't stay in this way any longer, I'm sorry.
I've realized that thoose words that came out from your mounth didn't come from your heart.
It did toook it time for me to make a clear picture of it and I made my dissicion..
You may have left me alone, cold freezing in this world but it's my turn to do the same now.
I'm leaving you and our times we spent together in the past.
.. even if you pass me by someday, I wont look back or even look at you with a smile on my face.
You've took a little piece of my heart when you left me with tears in my eyes,
we planed our future together, promised eachother so many things but look how we are now?
Is it much better today then it was yesterday? I hope you'll regret it someday..
but the day you gonna wake up with that thought, I wont be beside you..
I'll be far away from you with someone who loves me from who I really am.
I tried a few times to save us but you keeped make it worser then it ractually was..
You can take the little piece that's left, 'cuz I wont need it anymore as long as I dont miss you.
I need somebody who doesn't complain about almost everything,
who doesn't want to change me for the person that I actually are..
Who can stand up for our love and not getting emberassed for something that could be real..
But do you know something?
Theese are the confessions of a broken heart,
and the tears that you've cost is now over.
Never again will I look, touch or even say your name..
I thought we wore happy but in the end I see know that I dont need you to make myself complete because nobody else except then me knows how to treat and priceate a women and keep her safe ´deep in the heart and how to always see their love in a positive way and live happily together.
I'm over you and I am happy without you so go an by your own..
08/04/16. .. what they said was inpossiable .
I guess that life is what you make it,
that we all have a ball in our hands & tryin to get it in to the goal.
One thing leads to another and we're just can't figure out everyting by our own..
We're getting worried about almost everything and getting confused,
doing our best to not make any mistakes and if we do..
Time will make it all better, broken heart's getting healed but the scars will always stay.
Taking the days as they come and hoping that it all will be better if you just work hard.
I've learned something from this world, there's nobody you can trust on,
even your own family can turn their back on you when you least expect it.
Learn to let go of thoose you love and all the thing's around you,
then in the end you'll know who's real and not, who's leaving and staying.
Don't tell everything you know just to get a revenge of somebody you hate,
even if you don't belive in this, someday.. someday you'll see what I mean with this,
that everything you do just to put somebody else in pain will come backs to you,
and when everyting is to late to change you will be the one who's staying all by youself
and thinking of you can't change things as back in the days and crying, feeling alone.
All you have to do to surrvive this life in this earth.. to make a peace in the world,
all that it takes is just that you have to sacrifice all you have to reach the goal you want to.
Think in a positive way and stay with your back straight,
when you cry, wipe the tears from you wet cheek and always smile after..
And don't you forget what they say about the weather,
after rain comes the sun, after winter comes the summer..
You may be sad and if you thinking that you wont be happy as before,
that beautiful day that you want to come is near you.. it getting warmer.
We'll have so much love to give, don't waste it to people who's doesn't deserve it.
Help them in need, pray for thoose in the dark who's feeling lonely and lost,
beg god for a mercy, a miracle that that will find their way in the end of the road.
For children who's hungry, parent's who's working their ass of just to buy a little piece of bread,
to feed their stumach and for not crying themselves into sleep and wake up with nightmares.
All I trying to say is that.. all we do is a chance to prove that we can make the word to become a better place, to create peaceness and fullfill our dreams with love.
All we need is a miracle, as long as we're having a faith,
there's nothing that can stop us from fail.. We can success if we want to.
Let show the world how to start so that they can realize that nothing in this world is inpossiable.
It may look hard but it's easier that you think it is, hold everyone in the hand,
laugh, be happy.. don't worry and keep the smile on your face so other can stop crying.
All the violence, all the miserables and the pain.. it's time to create a new world, just be strong!
We can make it, all we need is just a little bit of a push ..
08/04/16. Are we to invisiable to get noticed?
We all search for something that can last forever,
something to always look for whenever we need it..
I belive that we're sometimes to blind to even notice all the good stuff.
We don't really take vanage of them at all and just keep crushing down,
thinking of how really miserable we are deep inside..
But stop, it's not the end of the world, just take a little deeper look at it. There's a girl who's caring you in her heart every day and night,
the last thought of you is your voice in her mind and your cute smile.
She's just to hard to get noticed, she is one of a kind who's just have bad luck.
I thinking that love is sometimes not enough but why is that? .. I wonder.
There's actually no answer that I can give because there's is no one.
You can give your heart, reach your hand..
offer your soul and sacrifice your world for the one you love .
Trying to think in all the positive ways but there's somthing that missing..
Your happy with him and know that you can't live without him,
the way he smells. the look in his brown eyes or the way he touchs you.
Just when he holds you thight in his arms, your willing to give everything you have..
Money can't buy the feeling you feel, all the temperature, you'r getting warm on your cheast.
Your heart starts to beat faster and faster for every minute that passes by with him,
the hands getting swetty to and you getting high just for the love he's giving you..
Love can hurts to, it can drown you with tears and fullfill you little heart with pure pain,
cut the inocent heart into small, small pieces to and make you feel so hopeless.
Your keep wondering how it all went wrong and how you can built it all like before again..
Every begining has it's end, there's really nothing that last forever in this life..
People die, babies coming into a new whole wide world..
We cry of joy, flying of happyness and wakes always up with a smile on our faces.
.. We all hide something, keep the secrets private and trying to have a brilliant life.
Tears and pain are, I guess, invisiable and sometimes does people get's disapeared.
Keep fighting back, never give up and whenever you fall, straight up and stand up again..
08/ 05/ 4 Can't stop thinking of you, my dear angel ..
I still remember the days like if it was yesterday..
I close my eyes and thinking of our memories that I've got left from you..
Since the day I least expected came I've changed like never before
and realized that the world that I was living in
wasn't actually not in the way it seemed to be.
When you were by my side, there was nothing that were missing
but if you ask me now?
.. I really getted chocked, didn't think that it would end like this.
Oh how I pray god for everytime I think of you, that you could stay with me here..
Right in my heart, there you actually fitt in but that place couldn't be comfterable,
so God took you next to his side behind all the other angels.
So many angels there are up there and there were just one more place left,
He took you to early from us, If I at least could have one another chance to explain..
Even if your not here, your close to my heart.. there you'll always be.
I will wait for the day to meat you someday to come, time has passed by so fast.
You felt from above and came into our little world,
healed broken hearts, dryied away our tears from our cheeks..
instead you putted joy in our eyes and a smile on our faces.
.. I really lost a part of myself when you left, if you just could come back, again .
08/ 05/ 21 Qonsuquences..
I got it all when it comes to lovin' you because I'll be there no matter of situation.
And thorugh the darkness when you're losin' your way,
I'll be the way who guides you into the ligt,
like I promised, I wont disapoint you or leave you in bad days.
I will cherish and give you my heart and I will stay by my word into the end.
As long as you love me and as long as we need eachother,
there's nothing that can make me hatin' you as we said before..
For better and for worse, I'll support you whatever dicision & consuquence.
When I look at you, is like looking at the sky..
it's like if all the stars is looking at me through your eyes.
Whenever you hold me it's like the whole wide world is in my hands,
and whenever your far away from me, it's like a part of me is missing..
And it makes me kind of sad for a while because I', not used to of being alone.
.. There's nobody else then you who can take care of me in the way as you do,
for giving me the respec, I feel speciall and never want us to be separated.
I will love you to my last breath even if it takes my whole life to forget you,
I opened my heart to you and you throw it away like if it didn't mean notthing.
08/07/14 Unknown or famous?
We're all are human beings but getting unnoticed of a strange world beside us.
Thinking that it's okey and do nothing about it while we even don't know the truth and keep doing our thing while lifes being taken while we're taking a breath. If only things could be easy, heart's not getting broken and instead we could put a smile on their cute little faces with dried tears on their cheek. .. All the homeless who thinks of how they can get food and doesn't have to worry about sleeping hungry and cry themselves into the sleep. When children loose their parents in their small age and try to survive with her little sister on the back and being her mother instead just because the law while the goverment unpreciate theese people wheather their poor or rich..
life can really suck can't they? while other crying for hopless things .
It's thoughf !
I remember the day's like if it was yesterday, the day you went away.
Nobody know's how it feel's like, of being a lost soul.. somewhere, in world.
I'm not going to be sad or even think about it so much,
.. but I'm going to try to see the positive through the negative.
Life's goes on, like everybody else's life but I haven't forgot about you.
You're still the one I belive in, my angel from above beside my shoulder.
I can see you through me and feel you near me on my bad days.
I will, I want to but it's hard.. maybe all I need is, is just a push or a helping hand?
There's so many thing's going on right now and I don't know where to start.
Can't share it here, because I know that it isn't safe.
.. But for now, all I want you to know is that I love you,
even through the rain and the thoughf times.
P.S: .. Don't you please forget about me, miss you! Your BF!
About love.
Theres so many things I think about right now..
It's such a mistery, when you close yourself from other and cant show.
Listening on songs and they tell me about my reality, it hurts so bad.
When you are full of regrets and you can't do anything about it, true bud sad!
You just have to deal with the pain and wondering about if you want to keep it or not..
When you love someone you expect love from your partner, and even if you do..
you still think of something else that makes your day even harder then it actually is.
This is life, you cant do nothing, its our misstakes we deal with and trying to figure it.
People telling you things and you stop listening, 'cuz your heart and brain aint complete.
So the question is: What the hell did you really expect?!
IM SO FREAKING TIRED OF BEING TIRED.
So sad, too bad..
I need you to come and make myself be better, making me belive in me.
I want you to come and put these negative feelings away for me.
Because I'm weak enough to stand up for myself with my head high..
It's quite amazing how awful this cold freaking world can make us feel..
So disturbing and very annoying that you cant do anything than wanna cry..
I need a light where it can take me, a guide.
Feeling my heart pump, my chest getting bigger and my eyes smaller.
Focuse on breathing, and have my back straight!
Trying to not fall. Love is the reason we're living but I think that it wrong.
I wanna start beliving in my beauty, on my heart and mostly in myself.
Komplicated
As time goes on I am still confused and cant do anything about it.
As we go on we share and care, also cry and die.
I've learned, that even if your heart is pure,
they will still be after you through the odds, there's no cure.
As I close my eyes I can se my past haunting me,
I can also see that I have not forget it yet, it's maybe ment to be.
Maybe I cant go on, because I still have unfinished buisness to do.
I can see me, see through me that I can't do it alone. I need to,
make myself belive that I'm gonna be alright, at least for now..
Even though I need to become two..
I must go through this by myself and show myself that I can do this.
It's actually not so hard but there's still, a part missing in me.
I have been disapointed, abandon and failed a lot in life.
I am grown now and cant go over the line I need to.
But I will, I must and I'm gonna..
No matter what pain I have to go through.
.. it's better for me to go through this now then later.
It will make my heart feel so much better than ever.
I have to accept this life I've been given..
Either now or never.
I cant let myself be this weak anymore, time to wakeup!
.. so dont wait for me, 'cuz here I come. :)
Life n' the world.
We're all are human beings but getting unnoticed of a strange world beside us.
Thinking that it's okey and do nothing about it while we even don't know the truth and keep doing our thing while lifes being taken while we're taking a breath.If only things could be easy, heart's not getting broken and instead we could put a smile on their cute little faces with dried tears on their cheek... All the homeless who thinks of how they can get food and doesn't have to worry about sleeping hungry and cry themselves into the sleep.When children loose their parents in their small age and try to survive with her little sister on the back and being her mother instead just because the law while the goverment unpreciate theese people wheather their poor or rich..
life can really suck can't they? while other crying for hopless things .
